My soul floats on a bohemian rhythm. Drums crash and seduce the tambourine to dance like waves lapping at the gritty sand between my toes. Piano keys tinker below the wild celebration of my wilder nature, hinting at a subtle change of tune. As the drums reside like a receding heartbeat, a violin surges to the forefront of the symphony. Cello joins the chorus. A sweet melancholy ensues. Pulsing, swaying, flying atop the strings of music like a bejeweled gypsy, I find balance in the two genres. The drums rise from beneath. The tambourine rattles back to life. In the distance is the blaring horn rejoicing in redemption of my soul adding jazzy blues to the rhythm of my walk upon the soils of this earth. The cello moans. The violin wails. All together my head is spinning and my body is spinning and my arms are open wide and my skirts are twirling in vibrant colors of magenta and midnight stars and my heart is thrumming and my voice is whistling, beckoning the moon to sing and the sun to shine and the moment to never end. My life slips into eternity as all things meet their crescendo and fade. Left behind is the steady hum of the drum as my heart keeps beating.
Life teaches us that life is simultaneously good and evil, temporal and eternal, and that how we live simultaneously reflects and effects this duality of existence. But, you ask, is there any option for singularity other than that achieved through death? Contemplation on this matter has plagued me many nights. I have come to the conclusion that we are incapable of singularity in this lifetime. We will only ever be a combination of good and evil. We strive for good and along the path corrupt the process with few or numerous blunders. We exist in physical bodies and yet, if one believes also in the existence of the soul, we also co-exist as eternal. The spirit that guides our duality of actions will continue on after death. But, does death result in the singularity of eternity as being either entirely good or entirely evil? If physical life is both, maybe we could conclude that eternity should be too, but by that reasoning, we should not die at all and only continue to live in an eternal state on earth like present. We die; so, the eternal self should not entirely mimic the temporal self. If eternity’s reflection is skewed through our temporal perceptions, we cannot claim for certain that eternity continues in duality. Therefore, eternity must exist in singularity of either entirely good or entirely evil. It cannot be both. It is one or the other. Death does not eliminate one or the other, however. Since good and evil are moral problems, they reside in the notion of the spirit which is eternal by nature and thus both evil and good are eternal by nature just not compatible in death. This leads me to assume that death ushers in two unique eternal existences: a place for evil people and a place for good people, and our death determines which location each will inhabit, but our life determines our death. If this is the case and we are both good and evil during life, we formulate a problem that cannot be solved without outside interference. This interference has to come from something in control of spiritual destination, control over death. I surmise this something to be God, and therefore make it my aim to know his attributes in order to understand the way in which a soul’s singularity is determined.